Now, maybe if he'd had a flower behind his back, he could get a little frustrated. Maybe. You know what he wanted to show me?
The headband he's going to wear in the stupid "Great Race".
He got mad because I opened my eyes.
'If you'd only do what I tell you to.' - Michael Sanders.
I apparently am supposed to be whipped.
*AHHH*. I'm so sick of all of that crap. I don't know what to do. Its like, if I call him and apologize for something I don't see as wrong, I screw myself over. However, what if I don't call? I don't deserve to be treated like this.
"I'd never lie to you ,
unless I had to.
I'll do what I got to.
The truth is you could slit my throat
and with my one last gasping breath,
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt."
This is so frustrating. I don't think anyone understands. How can he treat me like that? I fucking treat him like he's a GOD. But hell, I slip up and I'm a bitch!! I mean, if I'd been asked to call him to tell him if I had to work & I didn't, he'd snap at me. But he does it and it's fine. Okay, and what about tonight!? If I'd done that and he would have SCREAMED at me. What could I do, though? Try to chase after him. Thats about as far as I'm going.
Its so unfair. And I see it. So why don't I do anything about it? Because I love him. But I can't keep it up. I can't keep giving and getting nothing in return.
This is so unfair.
I'm going to go driving. I wish I had the courage to just drive straight into that tree.
(p.s. Can you guys please sign my guestbook and answer the following 2 questions?: .x. If you had to choose a song/song lyrics to describe yourself, what would they be? .x. What about if you had to do the same for me?)