2. number 2. same week.
3. just like rockstar was the same day.
4. if im such a hardass and if i am the girl in sic transit and i really dont have a heart, then why does it hurt when i still know that this is nonexistant?
5. why am i ready to be back at the one place i hate the most in the world?
6. i think its because for the first time in my life, i have no where to call home.
7. i have no where that i feel the best.
8. thats not true.
9. theres this apartment in chicago that feels about right. when the sun is down, the lights are on, and the kitchen is being raided. even when we're all in different rooms, one making a cake, one on the phone, and one knitting. it still feels like where im supposed to be.
10. unlike the living room of the house i grew up in. waiting for an i.m.
11. or like the room in which i now live.
12. you know its bad when you have no where to curl up and cry.
13. not even my car.
14. (if i could scream really loudly right now and have it displayed through typing, this is where it would go.)
15. i feel ugly. for the first time in a long long time, i feel really ugly.
16. fact: i will never be one of the cute ones.
17. sad story.
18. hey, annelise. did you know we hit 2 months since corona light night the other day?
19. i live my life through dates passed.
20. and in hope of the ones to come in the future.
21. but very rarely do i live for the day occuring.
22. but the other night wins.
23. "fucking goldilocks." and a phone call in the morning explained it all.
24. i wish everyone was living the weekend that we were supposed to this weekend.
25. "so child dont go. getting your hopes. up."
26. story of my life.
27. and yours.
28. and yours.
29. and yours.
30. yes, and yours.
31. i need to find out where my home is tonight.
32. i shouldnt complain. this weekend wasnt all bad.
33. ate chinese food, cookies, and got lifetime.
34. went to a show (not n*, rufio, MCS, and FOB, though.).
35. watched requiem.
36. got pink stuff in my hair.
37. and i slept. so much.
38. sing me anything...