i have been missing joanna lately. no, i haven't missed being in a girl-to-girl relationship or anything, but i miss the closeness and comfort level we had. *sigh* i don't think i'll ever feel that way again. it was a good time. even if i hated it a lot of the time.
i had so many chances to date awesome people last year that i didn't take because of joanna. like, wes. and i probably could've dated chris. if i wanted to. but i didn't. i wonder if things would be a lot different now. i wish they were.
i remember this one time on the way to school and chaela was like "i don't like daniel" and i was like "what the FUCK? he's perfect!! he got you roses and wrote you sweet notes and he really likes you. what more could you want?" now i see. now i see it. now i see that she wanted the guy the walks down the hallways. now i see that she wanted the guy that goes to our school. the guy that can come up to her in the hallways and hug her. even if he doesn't make her mix tapes and buy her roses. even if he isn't as awesome as daniel. we all just want something to be normal. and i can't hold that against her or amy. i can't ever be mad at either one of them. i might never say a word to amy again. but i can't ever be mad at her.