so my life here is pretty fucking lame. im on another FUCKING computer. what a surprise. you know why im on a computer? because thats all i have to do. everyone else seems to live a billion miles away...whether they do in the sense of reality or just how it feels, im not actually sure. everything seems distant.

out of reach. including myself.

i went for a walk because i couldnt stand the site of my dorm room anymore. if i had sat there any longer, waiting for some interesting conversation to strike up, im pretty sure someone would have been killed. so, as i was saying, i went for a walk. i now have found myself in one of the only places on campus thats open. i got a fucking diet coke and im now sitting on a computer in a room full of people with friends.

i am pretty sure that i havent ever felt this pathetically lonely.

you have no idea how this feels.

+ i need you so much closer. +

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