people will forget me soon, though. this is how i feel. i mean, i have the friends that already live far far away. this is no different. but it feels that way. i dont know.
but. there are others. the ones that havent had to deal with distance. yet.
i have a list a mile long of things to do tomorrow. this makes me happy. i have errands to run in my new city.
i did this today, too.
and i drove all the way to nashville to buy a book. it was weird being in the city, though. i mean, i practically lived in that city this school year and i go there and it feels too much like the new life is meshing with the old and it gets ruined.
i will make friends by the end of the week.
goal.
i tried talking to someone today (this has nothing to do with the aforementioned statement.), but this just wont do. i wont say words i want to. things in the past, i now know, have to stay there. i wont get the chance to say things. and i cant tell anyone things i want to yell. this may be the first thing in my life i have never told a soul.
a record for me.
my life is the same now, though. i am watching friends with my roommate, katie.
but it isnt the same because it is with my roommate. i have one of these now.
i need a new template. this one makes my thoughts look scattered. uh. because we all know how i dont think in scattered thoughts? right.
haligh. a lie.
fuck that song.
monica: "i hate men."
phoebe: "oh no. dont hate. you dont want that in the atmosphere."
moninca: "i just thought he was nice, ya know?"