Have you ever had a balloon? And not just any balloon. The shiniest, reddest, biggest balloon ever. And you're so scared that you're going to lose the balloon, so when you go out with the red balloon, you hold on to it with every fiber in your being. Your hand gets tired and almost cramps because it's clutching the string so tightly. Then, you're too tired to hold on to the string anymore and it slowly, yet surely, slips away. And you look up to watch it fly away. And your heart gets heavy, even though you know it's JUST a balloon and you know that there will be more balloons to come. Even if it was the best one you've ever had. And you're scared that there will never be another balloon like it. And, you see another person walking next to you, maybe even a friend of yours, with a balloon just like yours. And it's their joy now. Their happiness. Even though you get to see the balloon, it's not yours. And you're happy that they get the joy that you had. But your heart is still heavy. Ever get that feeling?

Yeah, me too.

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