But nonetheless, 9 years ago today was my brother's funeral. And celebrating my birthday makes me feel so selfish. Once you 'grow up' and begin to realize such things, the magic of your birthday is gone.
For the 3rd ear in a row, a guy had screwed me over for homecoming. He can ask to take time off to go skating in Louisville, but he won't even bother to just try to get off for October 18th. I'm not going to get a Senior Prom. It would just be nice to go to Homecoming the first year that I have a boyfriend and the last year I have to go. Coming in second to skating kind of hurts. And to think I was actually really anxious about going this year. I had PEOPLE to go with and I already knew what outfit I wanted. But, it happens. I'll just rent some movies or something.
Thats the only thing thats been eating at me all day long. But I've tried to push the thought out of my mind and focus on the good. Which I did successfully for the most part.
I had a lot of homework. And, with that, you learn that today is just another day. But, it was still a good day.
Thanks mom.
And yet, as Newbie left tonight, the night seems like it just faded away. Another year has come and gone and I don't feel any different.