happiness never lasts.
i miss my old friends. almost all of them. 3 in particular. i just wish i knew what to say to fix things. but i'm not so hot at repairing things. i'm better at breaking them.
i am sorry to everyone. even though i don't think anyone will ever read this. i am such a bad person. everyone should hate me. they all have the right to.
to one: don't cut your hair. i don't care. you should take chad to see dashboard. not me. and fall in love with other girls. i just don't deserve it.
to the other: you always make me laugh. and feel happier. i really valued the friendship. fall in love with her and spend all your time with her. don't break promises.
to my old friends:
one of them: i wish that i didn't have to enjoy our friendship only through memories. and why aren't we friends? what went wrong? same old questions. same old answers: nothing.
another one of them: screwing around town was always the best. bitching about random CRAP and being able to still be kids. once again, same old questions. same old answers: nothing.
and the last one of them: every weekend for 2 years we spent together. and i miss it so much. this time though, the same old questions...but i know the answers: joanna, telling other people's secrets, and lying.
this kind of makes me want to ask myself what is the point in making friends? they all wind up dissappearing. but i don't care, i wish i had some.